December 2008
please and thank you
smile i say. like an order. an on and off swich. not a question. and answer. its ironic.
we take turns pulling eachother back from the ledge, picking eachother up, dusting eachother off. saving eachother. taking turns, like kids on swings.
i wish we didnt have to take turns, i wish the solution was permenent. that my words alone could save you, freeze you with a smile from ear to ear. but they...
its one of THOSE days
the days where time drags by and you think to much about matters better left un-thought about. those day where is been so damn rainy for so long you forget what the sunshine feels like. what it looks like when it hits the window just right, shooting light in all directions.
what do you do when all you have time to do is think. and the last thing you want to do is think.
burn it down, i dare you
it gets quite long enough to hear a door slam and fuck thrown around while punches hit the wall. it is quiet long enough for sobs to echo in my room. the quiet pulls my flesh to pieces. pulls me down to size. its for the better, i suppose.
he needs to be brought down to size,
burn it down, i dare you. you’ll be there burning in it. blame me for it. go ahead. because i know in my heart, it...
im tired of playing
we cant play hide and seek forever, soon enough we will face what we were running from. regardless of how good you are at hiding it. walking on egg shells, air is thick with emotion. i’ve got to get out of here before i suffocate. the walls closing in with the force of a nuclear warhead. i never wanted to fit. i didnt ask to. i dont want to. i just want to be.
it starts today
one sentence shifted my whole world. crumbling it. and i am not even suprised. is that bad? or is that even right. what is right. chances are even if it is right, it is never fair. that was not said out of anger, but out of truth.
one day i will find a way out of here. and these petty people with their petty lives.
who’s not to say i am not one of them. i could be, but what sets me apart...